She Stands

Questions upon questions....... It seems my new name has become Stacey "Question" The last few weeks my mind has been in over drive.  Wondering..... Searching..... Pondering..... And seeking. I want to forever stay in the will of my daddy God.... Never to walk off the path He has set for me.  In other words, I do not want to go backwards( decisions that are flesh based), but continue to press forward ( decisions that are spirit based) After many sleepless nights..... Am I doing this right Lord? Much reasoning..... Am I where you want me? Weighing in on all the pros and cons..... Is there something else I am to do? Making myself sick.... I need a yes or no please!! My brain dizzy..... Spinning in circles Trying to figure it all out on my own through the flesh.... S TOP IT!! He speaks!!! This morning before my eyes opened with the alarm clock..... My daddy God spoke to my heart.  Proverbs 16:4 New Internati...

The last few weeks I have felt as though I was standing on a cliff and ready to fall at any moment.  I had no clue as to why.... I couldn't put my finger on it...... I had no revelation knowledge...... No great understanding...... Just a "blah" feeling. I felt so far away from my daddy God and could not hear his voice.   I pondered..... I prayed...... I listened..... I thought....... And still nothing. I became physically,emotionally, and spiritually drained...... I became weary...... I became fearful. Even though I have been blessed in some areas of my life over the last few months, the feeling of failure had taken over me. The sad part is ,I didn't realize the battle that had shown up on my door step.  Until today......... Photo Credit When I read this,  my spirit was quickened...... My lack of understanding increased.  I now see the battle in front of me. The enemy knows our weakness and he preys u...

It's been several weeks since my last blog. However I am at a place of rest and refreshing time. I will be back soon. Just going to enjoy a little summer time....... See you all soon!!!! Be Blessed!!!! Xoxoxo Stacey Matthew 11:28-30 28  “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

I spent three years in grad school learning multiple theories on personality, development, and how do conduct talk therapy. Thousands of hours from work experience has taught me   sometimes the best answer for life's problems is a four-letter word . Bob Newhart puts it humorously in his Mad TV episode: [youtube=http://youtu.be/Ow0lr63y4Mw] Stop. It. In case you think I'm a heartless counselor, I should preface that my comments are personal lessons I've learned also as a teacher, parent, and   recovered bulimic/anorexic.    There are some situations where the best answer in   changing behavior it to simply STOP.   The other word for it is one that's missing from today's vernacular:   self-control. Are there areas in your life that need self-control?  Are there areas where the   first step in change lies in "stopping the behavior,"   even just once? I know of which I speak. There have been more areas than just eatin...

I can speak of my past....... I feel safe in my present.......... But I am nervous for my future...... Excited and nervous wrapped into one. Am I ready Lord?? God's word tells us, He did not give us a spirit of fear, but of love and sound mind. So why am I so nervous?  Maybe I am scared of myself..... ~Sheesh~ Scared I will maybe make the same choices again..... ~Yuck~ Scared the "old" me will resurface and the emotional baggage of my past will consume the me of today..... ~Lord No~ Fearful if I truly allow someone in, I will be rejected.... ~tears~ Or the choices I make will be just that, MY choices and not God's will for my life. ~Sweet Jesus~  My door of isolation has opened, I take my first few steps breathing in the new season that is upon me...... It is a sweet excitement..... Very sweet!  But as refreshing as it is, part of me wants to run back to the sheltered place I hav...

There were so many times in my life I would tell the Lord, " I will surrender my life completely to you after I fix this one issue"........ That one issue became many issues...... And my surrendering became a rat race. I was convinced I had too many "issues" to come to God. I believed I needed to fix them all before approaching my daddy God. The world had me believing I was too unworthy for God and for me to surrender to Him I had to get rid of my baggage. The lies of the enemy can and will paralyze and over take ones emotions if allowed. I became paralyzed with fear and guilt from all my mistakes in life. I had fallen off the path God had for me and ran my rat race with shame. It was a long never ending circle of shame, all because I had believed I could not come as I  was to the Lord. The voice of the enemy told me...... You are not worthy to approach the throne of God..... You are too far gone...... Why would he want you???...

In my struggles...... In my times of stress.... In my time of brokenness........ In my anger.... My pain..... My doubt....... What's a girl to do Lord? In the past when things were topsy turvey in my life, I had the habit of shutting down. My answers to any questions were " I'm fine" and " Nothing" .... I would hide out in my own little world I had created within myself ..... I would retreat to my own private sanctuary and shut everyone and everything out. Including my daddy God....... I didn't see myself shutting God out, but my lack of communication with Him showed otherwise..... My thinking process...... "He knows what is wrong and how to fix it, so I will just hide out under the covers until it is done."  My hiding under the covers meant that I walked through my daily life with a smile plastered on my face and spoke hollow words. My insides were broken and in pain..... And I continued to stuff ...