In my struggles......
In my times of stress....
In my time of brokenness........
In my anger....
My pain.....
My doubt.......
What's a girl to do Lord?
In the past when things were topsy turvey in my life, I had the habit of shutting down.
My answers to any questions were " I'm fine" and " Nothing" ....
I would hide out in my own little world I had created within myself .....
I would retreat to my own private sanctuary and shut everyone and everything out.
Including my daddy God.......
I didn't see myself shutting God out, but my lack of communication with Him showed otherwise.....
My thinking process......
"He knows what is wrong and how to fix it, so I will just hide out under the covers until it is done."
My hiding under the covers meant that I walked through my daily life with a smile plastered on my face and spoke hollow words.
My insides were broken and in pain.....
And I continued to stuff it all down, never expressing my true wounds.
My mountain of wounds became my ultimate hiding place, for there was much room to carve many emotional caves inside.
Many questions to ponder.....
Much irritation and stress....
A wounded heart.....
And many tears.
Several days ago a HUGE light bulb went off in my mind.....
A revelation of knowledge lit up my little world.
I now see over the last few years, my daddy God, in His wonderful wisdom and love has me talking about my wounds....
God, You speak to me by having me "blog through it all"
Instead of going under my covers, He has me share my struggles....
He allows His voice to speak through my words....
His words.......
To show MY pain and confess HIS love.
We all go through seasons of struggle....
It's what we do with it and how we handle it that determines our growth.
I may still have a little more "struggling" (growing) to go through in this season but my best friend and soul sister Diana said it best when she said.....
" This is the storm before the calm"
With that said, I will remain in the boat, rowing my through it with my daddy God as my guide.
In other words.......
I will "Blog my way through it All" and come out victorious in every season , giving my daddy God all the glory!!!!!
No more pulling the covers over my head....
No more hiding .....
No more pretending.....
I will no longer be ashamed of my weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9-11
9 But he said to me, “My grace
is sufficient for you, for my power
is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s
power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight
in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions,
in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
It is in the sharing and confessing we show others less of ourselves and more of our daddy God......
He is the source of our strength in life.
I encourage you, throw back those covers......
Step out in boldness, knowing HE is your strength!!!!!
xoxoxo
Stacey
Proverbs 31:25
25 She is clothed with
strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
she can laugh at the days to come.
I think transparency is an incredibly good quality! When we share our struggles and triumphs with others, telling how God has carried us through, our faith grows and so does the faith of others. None of us are perfect, but as we demonstrate our reliance on the Lord, He is honored. Thanks for sharing and for linking up today!
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Hi Stacey, Amen, and come out of it all, Victorious. You will as you walk every step with the Lord
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Tracy
To show MY pain and confess HIS love. What a great way of putting it...and I'm sure this processing will bring healing. Blessings!
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