She Stands

Photo by Boba Jovanovic on Unsplash T his unfiltered silence of the unknown has taken on a bellowing cry of its own. The unanswered questions in my mind have become a kaleidoscope.   And with each turn, the different shades of gray have no answers.  My flesh, in its uncomfortable state of the untold, seeps tears of its own.  A ll the while my heart and soul is trusting the Lord on a whole new level  in this new normal we are living. I must admit, when this plague surfaced its ghastly head, I started this journey strong. The unknown had no hold on me.  Porch sitting became my place of solace.  No fear.  No tears.  My sword raised high, the battle began. I dove head first into the word of my Jesus. I soaked in sermon after sermon. I sang my songs of worship from the noiseless perch of my porch: off key.  And I listened for the voice, the only voice, who could give me solid peace.   Jesus. Day after day,...

  **** Repost from September 2012 ****   Photo Credit: Averie Woodard     There have been seasons in my life when God has instructed me to walk through the desert. He doesn't give me the whole picture.  Just one softly spoken instruction for each step directed and ordered by Him. I am in one of those seasons now; walking through a desert in faith, believing the promises from my daddy God. It can be difficult, this walk in the desert. I want to continue and succeed. I want to get to the place He has for me. My steps get heavier, my lips are parched, I am tired and my soul cries out.    Should I turn around?  Sit down and cry? Beg and plead for Him to move me faster? My flesh is growing tired and weary and then I hear in my heart............   Matthew 26:41 Watch and pray that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.   I walk on,...

Goliath....   A Philistine giant who stood over nine feet tall, wearing full armor and came every day for forty days, mocking and challenging the Israelite's to fight.  His stature was massive with a physical strength no man could match. He put such a vast fear into the army of Israel and King Saul no one was willing to confront him, until David, a boy after God's own heart, stood to face this giant with the colossal power of God standing with him. Some may ask how does a sling and a stone become such a victorious weapon of war? My answer...... It was the trust and faith in God alone that gave David and his sling and stone such a victory. All though I may not actually face a nine foot giant in life, I do however have had my own Goliath's to encounter. And the one over the last few years has refused to fall........... Just when I think peace has finally found it's place in my life, this giant surfaces with its mocking and taunting war cry, challenging me to...

I can be notorious for allowing my daily life routine over take me at warp speed; days when all that I need to have done has me running in a million different directions with no time to stop and just breathe. ( Multi tasking at it's worst) On days when I hit the floor running without first dropping my anchor, daddy God, into the emotional waters of life,  the world will pull me into it's current and have me drifting swiftly into unprotected waters; waters filled with confusion, fear, instability and uncertainty. ( Emotional turmoil of mass destruction) I know it seems as though I may be the only person in the world to have days such as this and the reality is , I am not.  But what do I do when I am drifting into a current whose sole purpose it to consume and drown me? I am to step out on the water; to the voice who beckons me to come. Matthew 14:29 So He said, " Come." And when Peter had come out the boat, he walked on the water to Jesus. What a won...

Have you ever had a time when life is going as perfect as perfect can be? You are walking your path with some pep in your step..... Excited with how things are evolving in life.... Happy as happy can be.... And then out of no where a mountain shows up dead center in your path.  A mountain  so huge, you feel as though you will never climb over it; one that seems  indestructible never to be moved.  A mountain that has blocked your path and distorted your vision.  I have many times in my life and honestly I am not fond of them at all. When facing a mountain my initial response has not always been words of faith. I reacted from fleshy emotions and not my spiritual armor.   "Please say it isn't so."   I cried out.  "Why?"  I ask. "Are you serious God?" " Please tell me you are joking?!?" I was shocked and overwhelmed with emotions.  I was tired and sc...

I am having the biggest Ah-Ha moment of my life ...... I mean really, it's huge, gianormous, thrilling and a freedom that I have never known!! I have always tried to be Ms. Fix-It to anyone and everyone I love..... Especially my two girls.  They are my babies; it's my job right?!? Well.............. Not so much. And with my OCD Ms. Fix-It syndrome, I have allowed myself to be over stressed, over whelmed and become a natural disaster emotionally.  It was my job to a certain point in their lives, to nurture, teach, shape, mold and love them. I was to give them roots and wings....... Apparently it's the wing part that I have had a hard time balancing. ~sheesh~ Forgive me Lord for I know I can be a basket case :) If one was to ask my girls, they'd probably say I need hormones, but in reality it has been a fear that I did not do my job well enough for them to succeed in the world with out me. I panic when I see them making...

Wow, to say I am a little nervous to take this step is an understatement. God had placed this additional blog on my heart several months ago. For those who do not know, my sister, and best friend Diana have our ministry blog site "Shakin' the Foundation" and for me to step out and add another one to my resume' of blogger is a honor and blessing. However it is a tad bit scary to start something new...... But that is what God does with His children..... He has us to step out of our comfort zone into the unknown..... He brings us to a new place of uncertainties, only to have us learn a new level of faith in Him.  He tells us to despise not small beginnings..... So here I am, at a new place, biting my finger nails, twirling my hair between my fingers,and breathing deeply as I take this new step.  In the near future, I will be introducing a few ladies that will be guest blogging here on a regular basis. I am honored that these women are in my life and...