Ouch...........
I have had words spit from my mouth that tasted like vinegar.
I have said things out of anger.....
Reacting to the actions of others......
Allowed my emotions to overtake my common sense....
And spewed and spitted words before tasting them.
Can you say anger management??
And that is exactly what my daddy God did.
He put me through His anger management program.
Proverbs 14:29
Whoever is patient has great understanding,
but one who is quick-tempered displays folly.
I was not expecting the process he had chosen for me.....
I wasn't aware of how difficult it would be.....
Nor did I realize the steps He would have me take.
I was not expecting the process he had chosen for me.....
I wasn't aware of how difficult it would be.....
Nor did I realize the steps He would have me take.
Share my heart....
My hurt...
And my disappointment....
He had me sit still.
He had me say nothing at all.
I was told to zip my lips and hush my mouth!!
I was frustrated.....
Irritated....
And angry as a hornet.
(My Cajun temper can and will get the best of me if I do not stay in check.)
"What do you mean hush my mouth?" , I asked Him
This is me Lord....
You know me.....
You created me.
"Hush and Trust" he tells me.
" Excuse me Lord, but I really have something to get off my chest" I tell him
"Hush and Trust" he repeats
He knows the words that are trying so hard to come forth from my mouth will in turn be destructive to the one I want so badly to say them to.
He knows and sees the whole picture, where I only see the here and now.
He knows by me spewing/venting my words of vinegar I can and will harm someone emotionally all for the sake of getting my point across.
"MY" point.....
Not His love.....
His grace.....
Or His mercy.
It is when I learned to speak my emotions in love, to express my anger without destruction, to share my heart in grace, He has allowed the words of my mouth to flow.
In a nut shell, I had to learn to taste my words before I spit them from my mouth.
I never want to intentionally hurt others.....
I do not want to be the voice of pain.......
I choose not to be destruction, but unconditional love.....
Learning to be more like Christ and less of me......
I am tasting my words before I speak.
And when I am on the verge of spewing my words, I hear in my heart.......
Hush and Trust
xoxoxo
Stacey
James 1:19-20
19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.
Anger has also always been my problem. Not anger per se but how I handle it. It's really hard to manage especially if you seldom feel it. I just seek His guidance and ask Him to take over when I feel the urge to burst. Those are nice 3 words I could use to myself too. Hush and trust. Thanks for sharing it! You're not alone in this struggle.
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