Grace, Ohhh how I love you........
I am trying with every breath in my being to show this one particular person grace, mercy, forgiveness, and love all wrapped in one.....
I am finding it so hard as boundaries have been crossed.....
Feelings have been hurt.....
Choices made that were not theirs to make......
This person has rubbed me the wrong way, over and over again.
I want to scream at the top of my lungs ...
IT"S NOT ABOUT YOU!!!!
But.......I remind myself to take the highroad.....
To sow peace and not strife......
To eliminate any and all stress to the best of my ability......
To be more of Christ and less of me.
However with my words and thoughts on different pages........
~Grace comes knocking again~
I sit with her and began to tell her why I feel the way I do....
I tell her this person is too pushy....
To over bearing....
I explain to her I see this person making everything all about them....
Manipulating every situation.
Yes I am angry......
And ready to explode.
Do you see where I am going???
I am now making it all about me and my feelings.....
~sheesh~
Once again Grace shows me I am to look inside of me.....
To see where my faults lie.....
Boundaries I have crossed...
Thoughts I have held on to......
Words I have spoken.
And then I am given this........
In the way you
judge, you will be judged; and by your standard of measure, it will be
measured to you. Why do you look at the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but
do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your
brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ and behold, the log is in your
own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you
will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye. –Matthew
7:2-5
Ouch!!!!!
"I am listening "... I tell Grace.
Have I been judging their actions unfairly??
Have I been judging their emotions harshly??
Have I been judging or expressing?? ..... I ask
Whatever it is I have been doing , I need to remove my "log" instead of looking at their "speck"....
To allow my daddy God to handle all.....
And for me to continue to grow in Christ and be more of him and less of me.
Another lesson for me to embrace.
Another lesson for me to embrace.
Grace......Ohhhh how I love you!!
Xoxoxo
Stacey
Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you. -Ephesians 4:32
Stacey, I have been dealing with an individual who has done the same things. She has accused me, betrayed me and hurt me; when I did nothing but try to love her. I deal with those same thoughts and emotions and like you have found grace is the only place I can where find direction AND freedom.
ReplyDeleteLori, It seems we will always have those who hurt and betray us just as Jesus did. I have come to learn that when it happens it is a lesson for me and how I respond. I am so thankful for grace because I have had many times in my life, I did not respond with the love of Christ. I am still a work in progress, forever on my potters wheel. Grace and Freedom two beautiful words :)
DeleteXoxoxo
So powerful. Hit my heart just right!
ReplyDeleteGrace = Life. Good post.
ReplyDeleteHi Stacey, I see what you mean when you say we are both in the same space again :) And you are right on the button, its all about grace. Thank you for the reminder my friend.
ReplyDeleteGod bless
Tracy
I have learned that when I change my attitude (remove my log!) the entire situation changes. The person who I had the issue with is easier to take. They may not have changed one bit, but I have. Do you know what I mean?
ReplyDeleteThanks again for your beautiful comment on my blog earlier today. :-)
Blessings, Joan