She Stands

 Many times in life we have those who come into our lives only for a season. A season of hope..... A season of encouragement..... A season of healing.......... And even a season of love. Over the course of my life, I have learned that God will place certain people in my life for growth and change. As a woman, we have been created to love, nurture and care for those we love,  to push our own emotions to the side and stand for the ones we love and care for. We have the " I want to save you from all life's pain" syndrome because I love you. Well at least I know I do.  That's just me...... It's how my heart functions. However that part of me, the one who is willing to lay it all down for those I love, can cause myself pain and heart break. Why is that you may ask? It's not because I love them, support them and stand for them..... It's because I allowed my heart to get so wrapped up in the natural that I tried to save them ,...

I am not as strong as I appear to be..... I have my time of weakness.  I cry the same tears you cry.... But behind closed doors. My smile is genuine..... So is the pain surrounding it. I have my bad days just as you do.... Life throws us all curve balls from time to time.  I love hard..... I lose gracefully. I care deep.... I run from rejection. I stumble through negativity..... I rise again through encouragement.  I make mistakes..... I become victorious. I stand for the ones I love..... Through their pain and their joy. I give second chances..... And then some.  I fight strong..... I crumble easy. I have my own insecurities..... I have my own strengths. I see things in others they themselves can't see.... I believe in them..... I see their heart.  I forgive easy..... I love faithfully.  I try again...... And again.  I walk hard roads.... That lead to easy ones. ...

I absolutely love this tree.  Every time I pass it, it draws me in and tells me a story. I see it's strength....... I see it's beauty. I hear it's whispers of wisdom through it's bustling leaves....  I see it's smiles of sunshine through the blooms.  I feel it's calmness from past storms..... I feel the serenity of it's peace. I see my life's song through my daddy God in this tree.  My strength comes from my roots planted in the soil of Gods word.  My inner beauty is Christ shinning through me in a dark world. My wisdom comes from his whispers into my soul.  The sunshine of my blooms shine from the ones he has placed in my path to speak life and encourage me daily. My calmness comes from  past storms which has taught me He is forever in control and holds me in the palm of his hand.  My serenity of peace is wrapped in his unconditional love for me, never to leave nor forsake me.  ...

James 1:5-8 5  If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God,  who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.   6  But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt,  because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.   7  That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.   8  Such a person is double-minded  and unstable  in all they do. I believe in the power of prayer..... I believe and trust when I speak to my daddy God he hears me, His daughter...... I believe He listens to my every word with the sweetest of love........ I believe He takes each emotion with my prayers and holds them to His heart for safe keeping.   I believe every feeling I have has the  utmost  importance to  Him.  I do believe.............. Then why at times do I toss so much? It's the natural ....... The human nature in me...

My life right now looks and feels like a pile of socks that need sorting and matched...... Or at least that's how I feel. Did I mention I dislike sorting socks??? With a passion. ~sigh~ There has been several changes in my little corner of the world in the last few months.  My emotions have been running high for several reasons....... So high, I feel as though there are times they are choking me.  I have gone from happy to fearful, stressed to feeling blessed, doubtful to belief, and confused to certainty ..... I have had no clue which piece (sock) of my world to pick up first. From family members struggling to the point of drowning.......... To friends whose world seem on the verge of collapse... And those who's strong desire for independence, has them on a path of pain and hard knocks.  It all goes back to my "fix it" syndrome. I know I must give it all to my daddy God...... I must lay it ALL down and leav...

I don't know  the exact thing that has me so emotional today..... Wait....... that statement is not completely accurate. I know what is weighing heavy on my heart...... For me to speak it out loud sounds so selfish..... So self absorbed. But speak it I do.  ~sigh~ "Why Lord?" I ask..... Why this road???? I am tired Jesus, tired of having to be strong.... Tired of having to be two ....... Tired of picking up the pieces....... I am just so tired, and I don't want to do this anymore.  My question of cries continue...... None of this was my choice, so why am I the one having to ride this roller coaster of emotions?? "This is not what I wanted"... I scream on the inside. I worked so hard to NOT have this happen..... I did so many things opposite for circumstances and situations to be different.  Why Lord?? Why?? I am just so tired............... At this moment, the statement " And this too shall pass" seems ...

I believe I have a purpose......  My journey has just begun....... I believe my destiny is ordained.......... My footsteps have been ordered...... I believe he walks with me..... Never to leave nor forsake me.......... I believe every promises my daddy God has ever made to me.  I believe that his timing is far from mine....... His ways are higher than my own....... I believe his word never returns void.......  He is not a man that he should lie.........  I believe he meets me where I am ..... Every minute of every day. I believe he sees my struggles and loves me unconditionally.....  He knows my hearts desires....... I believe he brings beauty from my ashes..... Everything works for those who love him. I believe when my hearts breaks........ He collects my tears in a jar...... I believe his healing touch is all I need..... For he binds the wounds and heals the broken hearted.  I believe he cal...