She Stands

My heart is full of desires...... Many are for my children to succeed and to be prosperous in their lives.... For their every need to be met and for God's favor to be a continuous rain over them. I have desires for my family and friends.... For happiness and joy to be a foundation in a world that screams sadness and despair. For every struggle to strengthen their faith and victory to chant their names. And I have my own desires, those that I have hidden deep within the core of my very being... Tucked away behind the beating of my heart..... Secured and intertwined around my soul. Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart. I love that verse. It reminds me that my daddy God loves me so  much that He will give me my desires. He will shower me, his daughter, with those things which I hold in my heart. But notice the first part of the verse...."delight yourself in the Lord"  To delig...

It's amazing that it was three years ago I started participating in the "one word" for the year. It just doesn't seem that long ago. But I am so glad I did.  I love and adore for the word my daddy God has given me for 2015. "BELIEVE"  What a powerful word!!!! It amazes me that I have been referring to this one word for the last 5 months not knowing this was my word for the new year! God is just so cool that way!! As 2014 comes to an end, I hear him speaking directly to my heart.... Believe what I have told you..... Believe in my promises...... Believe that your destiny is blooming brighter that you can imagine...... Believe that I, the Lord thy God, is doing a great work in you!!!!!! Believe in Me!!!!!!! It's easy to get swallowed up in  what our circumstances speak.... It's easy to  hear what the world tells us..... It's even easier to give up when our hard times overwhelming take us to the ground in desp...

    Sometimes we get down on ourselves. People will say and do things that hurt, work environments can be difficult or nonexistent. Friends and family can be draining and toxic. Maybe you are in a relationship with someone that makes you feel like you just aren't good enough or they treat you badly.   I'm here to tell you my darling that you are worth more.   God does not make junk. He doesn't make broken people and He doesn't make mistakes.   You were created in His image. Genesis 1:27 So God created man in His own imagine; in the imagine of God He created him; male and female He created.   He created you to be uniquely you, for His divine purpose.   Ephesians 2:10  For we are His workmanship,created in Christ Jesus for good works,which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.   He knew you before you were born. Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you...

I can not count the times in my life I have done things in my own time frame...... Never waiting for the right time. My past has proven to be a story of unwise choices.... Rushed decisions..... And unrealistic outcomes for my future. In my lack of maturity, I believed I could make things happen instantly. I did not stop to see which doors were closed and which ones were open. I opened shut doors, even if that meant using a crow bar...... And passed by open doors because what I saw did not match the picture I painted. I told myself what I had pictured was exactly what my daddy God had for me and ran with it. Sadly I never stopped long enough to hear his voice telling me to stop.... I did not look for his directions.... I bolted at the speed of lightening to obtain my wants. Had I waited on his timing, I would have saved myself many heartaches and needless disappointments. Many times in life the things we desire come before us w...

I would love to be able to say I have been obedient my entire adult life.... I wish I could say that every time God had directed my steps, those steps I did take. However that would not be truthful. Many times in my life God would place road blocks along my way.... The signs would all be there..... Red flags flying high..... Flashers blinking and sirens screaming "ROAD CLOSED" But did I turn around???? Sadly no. It was nothing for me to go around the barricade..... Climb over it..... Slide under....... And push my way through. Regardless of the promises I had received from my daddy God, I insisted on doing things my way, resulting in a huge delay and creating one hot mess after another. My thought process was hindered. I believed since I was promised a certain blessing, it was up to me to obtain in any way I was humanly capable of doing so..... Even if that meant I was to barrel through the road bl...

     In life we will cross paths with many..... There will those who cross for short seasons and those who are there for longer ones...... Some may even be called to walk along side of you for the duration of yours and their season of life.   Any time paths are crossed, the reasons can be many or few. Maybe it is for you to extend grace..... Maybe it's for you both to show mercy..... It could be to teach and show them unconditional love through a healing season..... Or it may even be to teach you how to respond and embrace rejection. (Yes I said rejection., just as Jesus was rejected so will, we, his children.  ) Rejection, if allowed, becomes a season of learning wisdom..... Godly wisdom.   There will be times in life when the love you give will not be received nor returned by others. They will not see your heart for what it truly holds..... They will not be able to grasp the compassion you carry.......

Ouch........... I have had words spit from my mouth that tasted like vinegar. I have said things out of anger..... Reacting to the actions of others...... Allowed my emotions to overtake my common sense.... And spewed and spitted words before tasting them.  Can you say anger management?? And that is exactly what my daddy God did. He put me through His anger management program. Proverbs 14:29 Whoever is patient has great understanding,      but one who is quick-tempered displays folly. I was not expecting the process he had chosen for me..... I wasn't aware of how difficult it would be..... Nor did I realize the steps He would have me take.   Instead of allowing me to get my point across, to say what was on my mind..... Share my heart.... My hurt... And my disappointment.... He had me sit still. He had me say nothing at all. I was told to zip my lips and hush my mouth!! I was frustrated..... Irritated.... And angry ...

Winter is upon us and with that comes the harsh cold weather.... The gloominess of bare tress..... Darkness that settles in the early hours..... The dying off season........ Purging the old and preparing for the new.  Looking past the dreariness of winter, we embrace the family time the holidays bring..... Turning the corner into a new year..... Thankful for the blessings of the year past, lessons learned and expecting better for the year to come....... Seasons of loss, growth, and renewal. Each season  has a purpose but if we walk through them with our eyes and hearts closed, sadly we will miss the joy and beauty found in them. The same goes for our own personal seasons in life. Season's of life can come in many fashions. A season of correction brings maturity..... A season of isolation teaches us to lean of our daddy God and His ways...... A season of healing brings the removal of old emotional hurts, physical ali...

      As a child and even a young adult storms scared me.... It was a eerie type of fear.... A fear that held me captive in my entire being....... It was the unknown power the storm contained... The destruction that lived within it's wall of fiery. I couldn't see past the darkness of the clouds nor could I cling to the  knowledge that the sunshine resided right behind them. As a child my hiding place from a storm was hiding deep within the covers of my bed. As a young adult and married, I would bury my face in my husband's back, wrapping my arms around him tightly with eyes closed so hard one would think my eyeballs had vanished. How many times do we allow the storms in life to consume us? To paralyze us with fear? To hold us hostage with in our own minds? To keep us captive in the confounds of the unknown? Life storms come in many forms. From our finances, to mishaps with our children, to relationships destroyed or an illnes...

      Another birthday is upon me...... Another year older..... A few more gray hairs growing...... ( Nothing a box of color can't fix) Maybe even a few more wrinkles crowning my face. ( Extra face cream to the rescue)   It's been 5 years since my daddy God moved me back to my home state and town.... In these 5 years I've had changes within myself..... Healing, restoration, deliverance and much growth. Looking back over the last 5 years, much has changed in my life..... Changes for the good in me..... For those I am most thankful. I do however have areas in my life that to me seem stagnant.... No change.... Just sitting..... Still waiting.... I tell myself, my time is not God's time and his time is always the right time.... I tell myself He is setting the stage for me... He is preparing me for all He has for me. And then I hear my clock ticking reminding me I will be a year older...... My flesh mocks me.... My mind...

    Years ago I asked the Lord to use me as an instrument of His love. My heart was so full my only desire was to let it spill over in the lives of those who starved to be loved, those who have never had someone love them unconditionally.  I never in my wildest imagination realized there would be times when loving others could be so hard.   Hard when I watch others sit in the misery of their circumstances..... Hard when I hear their words of self pity and constant negativity..... Hard when I see them push away every good thing our daddy God is putting in their path to help them overcome. Hard when I witness their defeat in life by their own choosing. Hard when I see them turn a deaf ear towards words of encouragement ..... Hard when they choose to live in past hurts and pain instead of healing and grace.... Hard when they deny the love of their daddy God.   My heart just breaks a thousand times over for them.... Sometimes t...