She Stands

I am having the biggest Ah-Ha moment of my life ...... I mean really, it's huge, gianormous, thrilling and a freedom that I have never known!! I have always tried to be Ms. Fix-It to anyone and everyone I love..... Especially my two girls.  They are my babies; it's my job right?!? Well.............. Not so much. And with my OCD Ms. Fix-It syndrome, I have allowed myself to be over stressed, over whelmed and become a natural disaster emotionally.  It was my job to a certain point in their lives, to nurture, teach, shape, mold and love them. I was to give them roots and wings....... Apparently it's the wing part that I have had a hard time balancing. ~sheesh~ Forgive me Lord for I know I can be a basket case :) If one was to ask my girls, they'd probably say I need hormones, but in reality it has been a fear that I did not do my job well enough for them to succeed in the world with out me. I panic when I see them making...

This is a re-post from March 2012 I wrote over at"Shakin the Foundation"   Click here to visit Shakin the Foundation **************************************************************************** T he "real " me? ..... As a single mom the world has, on many occasions, label me with it's version of who I am . I have been told I am unlovable, that no man would ever want me. I have been told I was too fat, and too skinny. I have been told I am too loud, not pretty enough, not educated enough, and not wealthy enough to fit in the great social status of life who the world deems the "beautiful" people. I have been told I am a weak parent as there is no "man" in my household.  I have been told I'm not Godly enough, my values are lacking, once again there must be something wrong with me as I am divorced. I  was told on a couple of occasions that I spent too much  time  with my children and was too  involved  with ...

The last several weeks I have been reminding myself of all the promises my daddy God has made to me over the past few years. Reality..........I have been struggling in this part of my season. I have yet to see the full manifestation of His words spoken to me over the last four years......   And  I  am ,sadly, struggling to see them come to pass. Me,  in the flesh, have so many "whys" and "how comes"...... The " how much longer's?" and "come on already's"..... They scream from my every pore ready for this part to be ohhhh so over!!! The lack of my understanding of this time frame has my mind spinning with question after question.................. I want to shout at the top of my lungs, COME ON ALL READY DADDY!!! (God) A few answers would be appreciated, just a few Lord, please? I want to drop to my knees,face to the floor and whisper, enough is enough Lord.............. At this point I...