She Stands

One bad decision , one wrong turn , and a life suddenly full of disappointments, criticism, hardships, and the judgmental eye of the world...... This was what her young life had become in  a short period of time. She didn't understand how it all came to this, but it had, and making the right steps seemed like such an impossible task. No longer did she have the support system of those around her, no longer did they see the possibilities she had, only the lack the world had now deemed her future. Her tough out side exterior over shadowed the brokenness and self doubt her heart held. Her face once glowing with hope illuminated a hardened and desperate soul, a soul needing for someone to see past all the wrong and witness the heart bleeding changes taking place deep within. She began to fight her way back through all the self induced pain. One small step at a time, she is making her way. The world is echoing her faults with every step, love that is offered comes with cond

There have been season's in my life when God has instructed me to walk through the desert. He doesn't give me the whole picture...... Just one softly spoken instruction for each step directed and ordered by Him. I am in one of those seasons now..... Walking through a desert in faith, believing the promises from my daddy God~ It can be difficult, this walk in the desert. I want to continue and succeed. I want to get to the place He has for me. My steps get heavier, my lips are parched, I am tired and my soul cries out.  Should I turn around? Sit down and cry? Beg and plead for him to move me faster? My flesh is growing tired and weary...... And then I hear in my heart............ Matthew 26:41 Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation; the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.  I walk on, not giving in to the temptations of my flesh, when all I want to do is sit,cry and beg for this to be over. To keep my sanit

I joined my home church  in Texas for a 21 day fast and all though I did not fast food, I did however fast social media. Where technology can be a great tool in spreading the word and love of God, in the grand scheme of things I have learned it can also be an addicting crutch. Fasting has shown me what my priorities have become and through His grace I see where much correction is needed.  With one click of a button scrolling online for scripture and daily encouragement  became easier than time spent opening my bible and seeking God through His written word.  The ease of keeping up with family and friends through social media has taken over phone conversations and face to face visits.  I am guilty in justifying my time spent catching up through social media has more flexibility in my daily life, however it has become less personable. Time is a commodity, once gone, that can never be regain. It is is not a negative source as I have many loved ones spread all over the country

Trying to control someone else choice of words, actions or even thought process,for me, can be compared to a game of tug-a-war. You can dig your feet in, grab hold tight, pull with all your strength and still end up on the ground. For me, my "ground" time is ......... ~SIGH~.   Well , more times than I want to admit......But is a defined reality in my life. *Control is just an illusion when it comes to other peoples actions and words* The Lord spoke these to me several days ago and then had me sit on them. Waiting has never really been one of my best assets in life. But waited I did, until now..... Jesus knows oh so well how my little "control" issues can and have gotten me into a pinch. Of course I didn't see them as "control" issues. However they were and are. And by His grace I am still a work in process. My illusions have come in many forms. If I loved a person enough I could "change" them. ( that can make for bad relationship