She Stands

" He will never be content until he makes me what he is determined I ought to be" - Hinds Feet on High Places When I read that sentence, it stopped me in my tracks..... Literally.  I read it and reread it several times.  For a large part of my life I was an emotional runner. I ran from any pain that came into my world, any rejection and any brokenness. I actual thought if I ran (not deal with it) it would all go away. Wrong............. I  allowed it all to build up inside of me like a huge stone wall.  In doing so I had no room for peace, love and true happiness.  No matter how far or long we run from our giants in life ( rejection, pain, brokenness, anger ) God will continue to chase us until we are so uncomfortable in our own skin that we stop running and surrender it all to him. I became so uncomfortable in my own skin, I got to the point surrendering it all to him was all I wanted to do.  I no longer wa...

* Photo from Wizard of Oz*   Hard pressed on every side would be an understatement for me over the last several weeks. I feel like this picture minus the ruby slippers.........  ~sigh~ I feel like I have a huge house sitting on me, crushing me, unable to move and no ability to breathe...... This house ,that sits on me, is reminding me of all my past failures and mistakes in life..... Taunting..... Pressing.... Squeezing me from all sides...... Showing me my child is stepping on to that same road I walked so many years ago. When I show the enemy he can not get to me personally, He goes after the next best thing.... My loved ones. He will remind me of my past choices in life, my hardships and mistakes and whisper I am to blame for my child's choices...... The last few days my emotions have been all over the place...... Happy, sad, angry, fear and frustration. Happy comes from a new season that is opening in my famili...