She Stands

"It is well with my soul...."  Softly I sing those words in a hush whisper to my heart.  Today is one of those days when I long to tangibly climb on the lap of my Jesus and let Him soothe my anxious  heart.   To say it is well with my soul but yet my flesh is ate up with emotion bears the question " How can one be at peace and yet the other sits in a pool of anxious emotion? "  I ask myself this question over and over again.  My flesh has screamed and cried out to no avail.  And my heart is weary. It seems the season I am in at this very moment is a season of breaking and much change. Beauty for ashes.....again. I am tired of the ashes of life. I am undone, unraveled and exhausted because of these ashes. My flesh struggles to remain anchored in hope and my soul reassures me with every tear drop there is  beauty within. The relentless effort to see this beauty has my joy meter in the red....

  Heart......the organ that pumps blood throughout our bodies entirety; supplying oxygen and nutrients to our tissues and removing carbon dioxide and other wastes. Our physical life line; if unable to supply blood to our organs and tissues, they die..... We die.  We all know the physical purpose of our heart. We are taught what eating habits and physical activity are best to keep our hearts functioning properly. However do we ever really seek how to keep the emotional and spiritual health of our heart at its best as well?   What do we do to guard our hearts  from emotional deaths; a death that causes our once soft, fleshy heart that held compassion, empathy, grace and love to become a cracked jagged and jaded stone? A stone that buries deep within the cracks the brokenness of our self worth and harbors the anger of our hurt others have pierced with their arrow of disdain. ...

It's amazing that it was three years ago I started participating in the "one word" for the year. It just doesn't seem that long ago. But I am so glad I did.  I love and adore for the word my daddy God has given me for 2015. "BELIEVE"  What a powerful word!!!! It amazes me that I have been referring to this one word for the last 5 months not knowing this was my word for the new year! God is just so cool that way!! As 2014 comes to an end, I hear him speaking directly to my heart.... Believe what I have told you..... Believe in my promises...... Believe that your destiny is blooming brighter that you can imagine...... Believe that I, the Lord thy God, is doing a great work in you!!!!!! Believe in Me!!!!!!! It's easy to get swallowed up in  what our circumstances speak.... It's easy to  hear what the world tells us..... It's even easier to give up when our hard times overwhelming take us to the ground in desp...