She Stands

Photo Credit: Christopher Wind       I can feel the sun's warmth; the glowing embers dancing across my face and the brilliance of light causing my eyes to close. It's a unexplained peace in the midst of my own internal voice.  I have portions of my life in which it seems I am peering through windowless bars watching all that is around me. Life seasons changing before my eyes, winning victories and battles fought. And yet not knowing if I am to jump in or remain still. Do I go or do I stay planted? Many questions I have, and answers I have yet to receive.  This place of isolation of sorts has become another season of growth; a place where He chips away the old to allow the new to surface. Transition can be hard, it can be uncomfortable and yet beautiful all in the same.  In spite of my happiness in general I long for direction, a revelation only He can give me.   I pra...

  Heart......the organ that pumps blood throughout our bodies entirety; supplying oxygen and nutrients to our tissues and removing carbon dioxide and other wastes. Our physical life line; if unable to supply blood to our organs and tissues, they die..... We die.  We all know the physical purpose of our heart. We are taught what eating habits and physical activity are best to keep our hearts functioning properly. However do we ever really seek how to keep the emotional and spiritual health of our heart at its best as well?   What do we do to guard our hearts  from emotional deaths; a death that causes our once soft, fleshy heart that held compassion, empathy, grace and love to become a cracked jagged and jaded stone? A stone that buries deep within the cracks the brokenness of our self worth and harbors the anger of our hurt others have pierced with their arrow of disdain. ...

    Sometimes we get down on ourselves. People will say and do things that hurt, work environments can be difficult or nonexistent. Friends and family can be draining and toxic. Maybe you are in a relationship with someone that makes you feel like you just aren't good enough or they treat you badly.   I'm here to tell you my darling that you are worth more.   God does not make junk. He doesn't make broken people and He doesn't make mistakes.   You were created in His image. Genesis 1:27 So God created man in His own imagine; in the imagine of God He created him; male and female He created.   He created you to be uniquely you, for His divine purpose.   Ephesians 2:10  For we are His workmanship,created in Christ Jesus for good works,which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.   He knew you before you were born. Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you...

Forgive me if I ramble....... So many thoughts and emotions today. I am trying to remove my flesh from it all.... Impossible on my own,  I know. I do not like the anger and bitterness that has infiltrated my inner being..... I feel as though I have iron bars wrapped around me and try as I might, I am unable to remove them. The hurt cascades over my heart twisting and turning into every crevice like spinney barbs ripping and slashing holes for anger and bitterness to to take up residence . Then the tears come....... Watching a loved one struggle can be most heart wrenching.... Feeling their pain on top of my own....... For me it's like watching a re-run of my past, which only intensifies the hurt. I have cried out to God asking Him " Isn't my testimony enough??" "My past mistakes should be more than suffice,  right,Lord??" "Why??....Just why Lord???" Silence penetrates my cries, for I already know my answer..... ...

The last several weeks I have been reminding myself of all the promises my daddy God has made to me over the past few years. Reality..........I have been struggling in this part of my season. I have yet to see the full manifestation of His words spoken to me over the last four years......   And  I  am ,sadly, struggling to see them come to pass. Me,  in the flesh, have so many "whys" and "how comes"...... The " how much longer's?" and "come on already's"..... They scream from my every pore ready for this part to be ohhhh so over!!! The lack of my understanding of this time frame has my mind spinning with question after question.................. I want to shout at the top of my lungs, COME ON ALL READY DADDY!!! (God) A few answers would be appreciated, just a few Lord, please? I want to drop to my knees,face to the floor and whisper, enough is enough Lord.............. At this point I...